An Artist Who Doesn't Make Art

Tis the Season for Graduation

So it’s official. It’s been a year and a day since my graduation from high school! It’s kinda crazy to think that 366 days ago it was my class that was walking over (following some men in skirts playing bagpipes) to Memorial to where our friends and families were eagerly awaiting our arrival. It’s sad but true that I don’t really remember that much of graduation, or high school, too well. Of course I remember the big parts of it, but I always feel like big days/occasions like graduation are so looked forward too and then pass in the blink of an eye.

Let’s recount what I do remember:

• being petrified to sing the national anthem (I don’t know if that should be capitalized or not, sorry America)
• thinking it was a very odd feeling walking across the carpet like stuff they put down on the turf field because it was squishy…I kinda wanted to take my shoes off and just squish around
• sitting next to Eliza and being so happy that I was next to one of my best friends in the front row
• thinking it was so cool that I was in the front row because my last name starts with the letter “P” and never before in my life have I been in the beginning of a row that had been alphabetized (class VP whattt whattt)
• thinking “I better try to cement all of this in my head because you only graduate from high school once” (whoops)
• Speeches. I don’t really remember what anyone said though. Kara made a joke about Justine’s mom paying her to be friends with Justine all these years. 
• Mr. Lee didn’t mention anything about the drama department in his speech that included basically every other aspect of school extracurriculars and it pissed me off
• Mr. Murphy STILL said my name wrong after specifically asking me how to pronounce it twice…dumbass
• not crying the whole time until Eliza started crying after we both got our diplomas
• not exactly sure why I was crying
• my brother leaving after I got my diploma because he had a wedding to go to and being pissed at him
• my other brother being in Japan while I graduated
• being super happy while filing out
• wishing I had got to know some more people in my grade better
• glad I didn’t get to know some more people in my grade better
• making sure I got a picture with Dubs
• taking pictures with my friends in our caps and gowns and just being so excited

And now it’s been a year. A year full of collegiate academics and new friends and new experiences and new challenges and new inside jokes-all the while keeping (or attempting to) keep in touch with the old friends and old memories. Someone once told me that after graduation and college everything was going to change and that some friendships just wouldn’t exist anymore. That person was wrong. Very wrong. I am still just as close to most of my friends and honestly, I don’t feel like much has changed.

Yes, I do live in 800 miles away from home for 9 months out of the year but the room I am sitting in right now is still my home. It is still the place I want to be when I’m sick or when I am tired of living in a 12 x 15 room. If I ever moved away from here I would be heartbroken. 

I guess I’m just more independent now (if that was at all possible) and more aware of the potential I have. And I am also more aware of how far I have to go. College is a weird place where you are supposed to have the time of your life and push yourself to constantly fight off all urges to not slack off. It’s the best though. I am not wanting to go back to school right this instant. I’m happy to be home; I love it and the people here. Will I be ready to leave again in August, probably, but for the time being I am a very happy camper where I am right at this moment. 

I am caught in this horrible, horrible cycle of wanting to bake and make the most delicious desserts but not actually wanting to clean up after myself. So no cupcakes are being made but I still really want some…this is a problem. 

Back to the World of Blogging

Yes, its been a while, but now that the semester has wrapped up and I’m back home (and basically unpacked….I think it’s safe to say 80% done…and let’s be honest, I’m probably never going to put away the clothes that I still have out, sorry Mom) I’m ready to re-enter the world of blogging. So from my last post lots of things have happened, blah blah blah, but overall I’m happy to be back home and ready for what this summer has in store for me.

It’s kinda weird being home knowing that I’m not going to see some of my best friends for a while due to their/my travel plans but it is good to know that even though we graduated and went through our first year in college (SAYWHATT!?) we’re still best friends. I’m taking the train into the city 3 times a week for my internship and feeling like an adult. Not sure what my final thoughts are on that yet. I do have to say that after raiding Darcey’s closet it’s a little more fun to pick out my “work outfits”. Interning for a maybe-future-president does make me dress a little more…proper…than I would like to but it’s still fun to play dress up. 

Also, I have decided that I am going to start reading again. Now that I have the freedom to read whatever I choose and have train rides to kill time on I think it’s the perfect opportunity. So far on the list (and in no particular order) I have This Lullaby, which is a silly teenage girl book that I started because I was babysitting and it was at their house and I had nothing else to do but read it…so I did…and actually got 60 pages out of it before the ‘rents came home. Second, I want to re-read The Great Gatsby. Classic. However, I’m finding it harder to get into the book than I thought it would be. And last is the Scott Pilgrim series. Yes…kinda weird but my brother basically begged me to read Volume one (and he never ever shows any interest in my reading choices so I thought I would for him). I sat down and read that in about 45 minutes today and it was actually kinda funny. It was a little weird for me to get used to reading a book that is set up like a giant comic but I feel really accomplished when it takes me like 30 seconds to flip the page :)

 I’ll be heading into the city tomorrow morning for day 2 of the internship. So far it’s been fun. There are definitely characters in that office I could see fitting “office” stereotypes perfectly (which always leaves me laughing to myself in my head). That’s about it for now…nothing super exciting, but I’m definitely looking forward to what the summer has in store.